Back to work =(

I love and hate work! Love work because I meet so many different people from everywhere. Front desk is so easy it really isn't work at all. Hate it because i miss my lil booger! He's all i think about. My two days off were consisted of watching despicable me and mega mind. Then playing Super Mario on the DS taking turns with booga every time one of us died. I really miss him i wish i was a millionaire so i could just spend my weeks with him spoiling him, picking on him and laughing with him. But in reality that'll never happen soon..lol..

So lately i've been thinking about the big picture! School, career, my future and all. I haven't gone back to school since 2008 yea i'm so late. I know for sure i don't want to be a front desk associate my whole life heooo nah. Right now we just can't afford it. With us both working we can pay rent, utilities, pay off some of our debt, have food on the table, clothes on our back and the occasional things we don't need but want. Alex's sister Karen has been wanting us to move in with her. Many pros to that plan lets see i can go to school, won't have to pay rent, we'd be saving alot of money and most of all we'll be so much closer to her! BUT i don't want to depend on her for everything i mean i know that i can i just don't feel like me and my family is her responsibility. She has her own family and a business to take care of. Yes she would be helping me and alex alot but i just feel like i'd be free loading. Then there's us staying here in az. Our life will be the same like the past 4 years! I don't want that i want to get out of this small town and find a life of our own. But that would mean taking booga away from his grandparents his aunties and uncles. The people who have been there for us the most, who have been there for me since day 1! I honestly can say that is why i'm still in az it would be heartbreaking to take him so far away. Also i would miss them like crazy! I can't just keep pushing this aside its either start school towards a better career, be tight on money and learn to be more frugal or off to florida i go for a whole different life. These are the things i get to decide now that i should be grown up. Yay me!